| I'm really wondering what I used to do with my time freshman year. I'm sick of tv, so I turned here cause I figured thats what I remember most about that year, being on the damned computer. I just can't think of what I was doing. I know I did a fair share on the weezer boards and webstite...but taking ALL MY TIME!? Cause I mean lets be honest, I didn't do well in school that semester, so I couldn't have been doing homework on the damned computer. I remember having my headphones on constantly too to block out my roomate and her tv/whining/fighting with her boyfriend/whining some more to her mom/eating noisily/sending me irky vibes. Guh. And I wasn't writing alot in this thing. That happened more sophomore year...I think. Well whatver I was doing I need to do it again, cause I'm fucking bored. I don't feel like having a super giant huge social life again either, that was an option at one time. But I was skinnier and more fun back then. Now I'm old and cranky and fat. This isn't making me feel any less bored or bad damnit! I went on facebook games last nite and they have all these cute games you can play with people. Except all the people are dicks or people really better than you at the games or people trying to hook up. Like that icecreaker game, I thought it was about what you thought of the persons answers and someone would win. No, guys just hit on you. I suppose theyre lonley too. But they don't have to be so lame about it...then again how cool am I, honestly. Freaking icebreakers...
I'm done with the internet already, I mean I suppose they invented guitar hero for a reason...
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| I like making private messages, cause then I can unprivate them later when I feel less vunerable about the situations. I just made a private message but unprivated another weeeeewt! Its a bit confusing about when I talk about dj and when I talk about my cute cute boy  (I can't stay mad at him for more than two seconds) but yea, phil is the one I'm sad about not seeing for a week and djs the stupidhead keeping me from seeing him. I suppose it was fair at the time, and I did want to see dj, but looking back I don't think I could do that again with how much I love phil now and how much of a falling out dj and I had. blargh
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| Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...
This summer can only get better from here.
the sickness, come on! we'll see what unfolds in schnucksland...
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| I always forget shit. My puter crashed...which is part of why I never did that update...or any webcamness. All in due time...buahahahhahaha.
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| I couldn't bring myself to punch him in the face. Hes too cute. I settled for a birage...bir...god damn english language...I settled to tickle the hell out of him but hes not scared away. This whole thing with dj tho is prolly gonna set things back...thing is I really don't want it to. And thats bad. I really want to see dj...
I really don't want to not see him.
And those two wants apparently don't work together. I haven't seen dj in like more than a month...and yet the thought of not seeing him for a week is driving me so crazy I must blog. Like seriously..what the hell is wrong with me. When I told him I wasn't going to be able to see him it didn't really seem like he cared that much. And for some reason that bothered me...cause I care alot...and its becoming a big deal with me. It shouldn't be...not seeing someone for a week...its whatev. I suppose its the whole thing with the fact cause its dj not letting me...but I'm so bummed. AHHHHHHHHH. Well I guess if he really truely doesn't care...then I don't care...I just..think..about...him...sooooooooooo muccchhhhhhhhhh. /cry. This totally blows. I hate crushes....well I love them ...but I really hate feeling this way. Like...really really really vunerable. Cause I know he likes me back...
I don't think he likes me this much tho.
I think perhaps this will be privateish.
Cause I sound retarded.
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